I really am a horrible person. I hurt him, a lot, and I know that he doesn't deserve any of it. I'm not sure why I do it, I don't do it purposely, I guess that I'm just living in the moment and not caring about the consequences. But that doesn't mean I don't care about him. Because I do.
I've broken his trust, and I'm a horrible person for that. I know that he loves me, but I don't know why he still puts up with me. He could do a lot better, too. He deserves a lot better.
...I wish I knew what else to say...
