He told me not to be mad at myself, but I can't help it. Looking back on "us", I can't believe how much I've unintentionally hurt him...while he's done nothing. And it's extremely humbling that he has stuck by me through the thick and the thin, "putting up" with everything I've done. I love him, please understand that. I love him more than anything else in the world...I'm going to marry him, but it's just hard knowing that I've done the worst things imaginable to him in the past.
People always say that in life you just make bad choices, you can't stop it...it just happens. Well, you know what? I'm not going to accept that. I have made bad choices, I've made the worst choices in the world...and the worst part is that I hurt the one person I'm in love with.
I'm sorry.
I love you.
